Everyone has their share of bad days, even I'm not a stranger towards this predicament. As a matter of fact, I would very much like to share with you how I would handle my bad days, in particular, usually involves anger/wrath. To be honest with you, considering my potential audience, I am very much concerned a possible threat, considering living in a small country where pretty much everyone can track you down.
That is why more than often, I value my private life, it is not much, and as though the benefits are often minimal, I am sure that some people would agree the value of their privacy.
So the main point, and I would assume it is nothing but a short one, I had just finished my online classes for the morning, and awaiting for afternoon classes, I was relaxing outside by the porch, taking a breather and a warm sunlight.
NOTICE:
"As far as I would like to add in the few details as to what caused my bad day and anger, unfortunately I am unable to disclose any information, in order to protect the identity of affected parties, and also myself."
As soon as it happened, I was entirely upset, as I was caught off guard by their intention, understandably, these situation are often controllable, but it often comes with a price, either emotionally or financially. Thus I brute-force resolve the issue, albeit temporarily, I would speculate that such solution may not last.
Throughout the classes in the afternoon, I am struggling to cope up due to what had transpired. I lost my appetite, I feel nauseous and I was unable to let go of that confrontation. It was expected, but it was uncalled for to appear in such obnoxious behavior. As soon as the class ended, I decided to take a walk, and probably do some chores, to let off some of my steam.
And to bottle up that anger, it was extremely toxic, especially for someone who is struggling. And so I simply used a punching bag to further let off some steam. Sadly, the blow was grandeur, I unintentionally destroyed the punching bag.
With no other ways to let it all go, I simply went on a "Rant-page" and just express what was on my mind, mostly in a British Accent. All the while, I used so much slangs that a "Roadman" would use, and lastly, I asked for the impossible, an apology.
Now by the time that I am writing this entry, I am mostly calmed down, I simply need to forget what has happened, and instead, just be on my way. Because if there is one thing that I learn from that bad day, is that:
1. At times, bad days happened just about on everyone, and everyone played their roles, even myself.
2. It is best to let it all go instead of wishing ill to those who caused you grief, you are better than that, and we know, we can be better.
3. Sometimes people tend to follow their emotions, and failed to see reason, like them and myself, admittedly.
4. Although when understanding failed to reach, sometimes it is not worth it to prolonged the issue, especially if they simply lash out whilst another party comes in a calm manner.
As a matter of fact, my approach was initially calmed, though I failed to counteract that wrathful manner in a calming manner. As a result, I was also affected.
In a way, perhaps that is why I request an apology, though when things couldn't go smoothly, I would just say:
"It's not worth it"
Although, it was also my own mistake for not handling my anger smoothly, it is inevitable that I may have wrathful emotion, but concurrently, even despite the challenges, I am doing my best.
So moral of the story, sometimes it is unsatisfactory to have bad days, especially when it gives wrath. Letting it go as better as moving forward.
To quote a well-known figure;
"You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger"
To summarize, I suppose one advice to overcome bad days, is just live your days like it's none of their business, it is permissible to resolve any issue, but not at the cost of emotional degradation, especially if the demand is just one-sided.
Have a good weekend everyone, and please do chin up, if bad days were to come to you. And I do wish you all well.
Stay healthy and stay safe.
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